Jan 23 2003
dealing with consequences
I’m soo very tired……
Maybe I’m sleeping too much, maybe I’m mentally exhausted…..
All I seem to do is think way too much…too much time alone in the car….too much time alone in the house….too much time alone period.
Anyways, I’ve been listening to Hoobastank a lot lately. I’ve always liked them, but I always like to go and revisit bands I used to listen to all the time. Also, I’m so crazy about their lead singer Doug. I have this great fantasy where he walks into his hotel bathroom and I’m in the bathtub with my hair in an updo and looking so sexy as I hand him the sponge and ask him to rub my back. Then he proceeds to throw me on the bed and have his way with me. Anyways, I’m addicted to their song Running Away.
The song is about a guy who’s heart was broken and he’s asking the girl why she is running away. The song is soo great but this one part always gets to me when it goes
So why are you running away?
why are you running away?
(what is it I have to say?)
so why are you running away?
(to make you admit you’re afraid)
why are you running away?
It just made me realize the whole time I was running away from every problem I’ve ever had. Maybe I was scared, maybe I wasn’t. The thing is I was and I did and now I’m dealing with the consequnces. (note to self: buy self a box of chocolates to console self)
Not to say I’m regretting anything. I’ve learned people who regret go through their whole life reliving the awful incident and not taking any chances. So why dwell on it eh?
