Jan 15 2003
So it’s been a hell of a day……
But it was a little brighter…..I got the best thing I’ve had in a while in the mail. It was a letter/card from spaz. hee hee….
I’ll hate to admit it, but the sappy card did make me smile. So if you’re reading this spaz…..thanks girly
Jan 15 2003
I worked out! OH man, I can feel it burning….I’m gonna wake up so sore tomorrow…
Anyways, talking to Pastor today (he’s my dr. phil 
) He gave me an idea on why I’m feeling so blah. He said I’m a thrill seeker and my monotonous life has gotten me depressed.
Damn right I’m depressed. Its the same routine over and over again. Wake up, feed the zoo, eat, drive a bitch of a lot, come home, feed the zoo again, attempt some homework, watch endless amounts of TV, attempt some more homework, give up, read the paper, try to read a book, then sleep. (then wake up and the whole damn thing starts again)
The thing is, I’m already so hating this routine. And if I hate this now, how the the hell am I going to cope with life when I get a steady job and a family and shit? Stuff like that scares me. I can so see myself walking out on my kids and husband because I’m so bored and depressed (yea I watched “Divine Secrets of the ya ya sisterhood) Then I had a conversation with Joe…..
Juryxoxoxo (12:41:41 AM): ha ha and what is my demeanor
JoEKiNG 5 3 0 (12:41:51 AM): lol
JoEKiNG 5 3 0 (12:41:58 AM): u tell me
Juryxoxoxo (12:42:12 AM): no you
JoEKiNG 5 3 0 (12:42:34 AM): very…
JoEKiNG 5 3 0 (12:42:41 AM): carpe diem
JoEKiNG 5 3 0 (12:42:50 AM): somewhat
That can explain a lot about me. The reason why I’m fickle as hell, the reason why I’m so bold, attention-loving, big-headed, indecisive, stubborn, shocking, open, (the list goes on)
Couple that mentality with a fatalistic approach, you have the perfect formula for a slacker with ADD. So that explains the nonchalant attitude towards stupid unnecessary classes at school. (like math 5…come on factoring when i’m 2nd year?? Give me a break!)
So Carpe Diem my friends……
