Jan 12 2003
To be single
Ughh……still feeling blah……..
Anyways, I came to a conclusion that relationships are not worth going for at this point… SINGLEDOM TILL I DIE!
OK, enough with the crap…I am lonely. I see the usual couple holding hands and shit like that…..ugh….makes me want to gag, but at the same time makes me lonely as hell. I want the initmacy, the company, someone to talk, kiss, hug, love, care about, BLAHAHHAHHHAHA……..
But for some reason, at the end of the night, I slip into bed, read my paper, kiss my dog goodnight, and settle into sleep and into my dreams, realizing that singledom isn’t so bad sometimes…..that the feeling only satisfying yourself and no one else is something to be glad about. The great thing is not caring for anyone but yourself. Finding out how great of a person you are and how to keep yourself happy is something not to be taken lightly.
And that’s what counts, how you feel right before you settle into your dreams….
And besides, I can always have the perfect relationship in my dreams……
