Bechamel in Marseille

……….”its a small world after all…..”

Well, I did finally get a chance to sit down with that guy I met at the snowboard shop (if you don’t remember look at Jan 1st entry) To confirm he was 22, I asked to look at his driver’s license…(he looked at mine, so it didn’t seem freakish) Sure enough he was 20, but hell he also looked exactly like Ed Norton without his freakish beard! Holy shit, the resemblence was so uncanny it blew me away. (well with his beard, he looks a little like Jesus, which means I have to be good…..or not ) Anyways, so we go to Petco (ladies, if you need to know wheter the guy is good or not take him to Petco and see how nice he is to the puppies. FYI: he was nice to the puppies) So we spend about 30 mins there ( I think i bored him to death) and then he proceeds to tell me how he is the older brother of a guy I graduated with….

Then it hit me at how small my world was and how I was never ever going to get out of Arcasia! I mean he is a great guy and everything (we actually held a good, intelligent conversation; him: jazz and blues me: rock and r&b) But honestly, it makes you wonder when I’m ever gonna get out of everything…….

sigh……..mayeb I can give it a shot, he is a total cutie…..but hell is it worth wasting my time?? (I say yes…..hee hee)

I was talking to my lesbian lover Virg today and I realized I was turning 21 next year. That single thought just kind of shot through my brain and scared, yet excited me. (kinda like my first time) That unattainable age was only a year away and it felt so beautiful to bask in that realization. Then I realized I was also about a year and half away from graduating and moving out on my own.  That, however, scared me shitless because I realized how I was not going to depend on my parents for handouts……

But then I realized how much independence I’ll have. I know, I know, everything in moderation….but still though I can picture some crazy-ass times I’ll have where I’ll wake up next to some random guy (or girl) on a boat going towards Alaska! ha ha

Anyways, I realized something else. Crushes are soo much more fun to have. You can daydream all you want about your “perfect” relationship with your crush and its like a big secret.

Fuck….I feel like I’m in high school again……