Dec 21 2002
Alex’s Birthday
It was Alex’s birthday today. Hard to believe this was the guy who threatened to kill me when I first met him at the tender age of 10 was now sitting at the head of the table at Tony Roma’s, having lived 20 years of his life. (And no he’s not trying to kill me this time around) As I surveyed the 30+ people sitting around the table, eating, drinking, being merry, I realized how life passes way too fast. It only seemed like yesterday when I was walking down to Enoch’s house to play or answering Jason’s many “why’s”.
I also saw Charity and Alex happily sititng next to each other. How they look so damn happy escapes me. Where did I go wrong? Where is my happiness? I thought once I was “all grown up” I would find the perfect relationship and be completely and totally happy. Even though I’m only 19, just thinking about the whole process exhausts me. Who the hell wants to go through all the “finding the perfect person?” It just all seems so trivial at this point. All I want to do is cuddle with my dog and watch countless hours of tv…(god I sound so damn old)
