Jan 25 2003
Make-up
For the hell of it, I spent an hour last night putting on make-up. No reason really, just to see how much this can improve my beauty.
Sad to say, the results were tragic. I ended up looking like those fat girls trying to get themselves prettier. SO I sat in front of the mirror, wiping the make-up off….wondering…damn how the hell does my mom do this every day?
Soon my normal face came out to my relief and I sat there with a make-up stained tissue in my hand just looking. My face hasn’t changed much but I can see it wrinkling is some places, the aging catching up to me. And how scary was it, aging before my own eyes. And I’m only 19!
Honestly, stuff like that scares me. I know whatever I have on the inside will last, but I’m pretty devoted to my looks. What am I going to do when the beauty fades away? Botox parties?
Ugh……much to depressing and much to early to be thinking about this……
