Jan 05 2003
Independence
I was talking to my lesbian lover Virg today and I realized I was turning 21 next year. That single thought just kind of shot through my brain and scared, yet excited me. (kinda like my first time) That unattainable age was only a year away and it felt so beautiful to bask in that realization. Then I realized I was also about a year and half away from graduating and moving out on my own. That, however, scared me shitless because I realized how I was not going to depend on my parents for handouts……
But then I realized how much independence I’ll have. I know, I know, everything in moderation….but still though I can picture some crazy-ass times I’ll have where I’ll wake up next to some random guy (or girl) on a boat going towards Alaska! ha ha
Anyways, I realized something else. Crushes are soo much more fun to have. You can daydream all you want about your “perfect” relationship with your crush and its like a big secret.
Fuck….I feel like I’m in high school again……
