Feb 17 2004
Secretary
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Currently Playing Secretary (Music from the Motion Picture) By Various Artists, Angelo Badalamenti, Lizzie West Chariot’s Rise see related |
SO………..
I re-watched “Secretary”. If you haven’t watched it, its about a girl, played by the amazing
Maggie Gyllenhaal, who is lost in the world. She works for a lawyer, played by the amazing James Spader, and realizes that she loves his control, while he loves to control her. It becomes a SDM relationship, and while the actions seem a bit out of the norm, the love and painful feelings are very real as these two lost characters fall in love, and find each other.
Basically in the last scene, he’s softly bathing her, and this amazing song, ‘Chariots Rise’ by Lizzie West comes on. Then she speaks saying, “Each cut, each scar, each burn, a different mood or time. I told him what the first one was, told him where the second one came from. I remembered them all. And for the first time in my life I felt beautiful”.
So whats the point of all of this? Well, Valentine’s day came and went. It seems like every other day, except I buy myself chocolate around this time, and eat the whole box like those depressed, thirtysomething women. Somehow, on my grocery run, I decided not to be like those depressed, thirtysomething women. It seems so…..repetitive and time-consuming to sit there and wait for the perfect man to drop by. I’ve realized that relationships are draining, but what worst is trying to start something. The apprehension, the butterflies, the everything is what makes this all not worth the wait. Everyone in LA sits in their own content bubble, as they yak aimlessly on their cell phones about who hooked up with whom, and who broke up with whom. We’re all alone, yet we continue to stall in our bubble, resisting any sort of contact. We all strain to “fill the hole”, but yet we don’t do anything about it. So we continue to sit and drown our sorrows in pints of cherry garcia, and wait for love.
Love…..it holds us together, yet keeps us all apart….
So what am I going to do? I’m going to sit here in my bubble, and strain through the film, and maybe find somebody else in their bubble, waiting just like me. Who knows, maybe we’ll all break out of bubble someday.
